strawberry-heaven

3november2009

2009-11-03T05:03:00.000-08:00

i am not happy...i dont know y
i just dont like it i argued with my fren...
urgghh!!!i just felt like WTF i am telling u something trying to make a point n that*** IS NT GONNA FREAKING commit suicide
n u just argue back very gud ! urggh ! our friendship is officially ruin by one stupid useless topic!
n i can't believe i brought that topic up n ended up in fights n argue
i just felt like crying i dont understand y ....
its so hard to not cry...
i tried not to but i just cant help it...
y ... i felt like u changed a lot n i think thr is a gap n i dont know u too well...
in this conversation i think our friendship is ruin u yell at me ur mad
n i wanted to tell u i dont give a damn! but i cant
i just dont know y this is so damn useless i just hope HL n joie was here then maybe i would stop caring abt what he say...
i just cant take it anymore n i decided hell yeah not talking anymore
even if i talk bak he would shout at me n say which part of i dont wanna talk bout this topic u dont understand...i was just trying to give my point of view....urggh damn i dont wanna talk to u again!go away leave me alone!

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Halloween party on 30October2009 a memorable day indeed =)

2009-11-02T03:15:00.000-08:00

30 october 2009 (friday night its time to party) Halloween eve(this might look so damn weird because no one ever celebrate halloween on the EVE but oh well my life is full of weirdness)

it was raining on the afternoon n that was the last thing i hope god would give me!!!!
i tot it was gonna rain like the other days non-stop!but thank god it stopped
we prepared everything the decoration well it sucked obviously!!!!everything started to fall off it was so horrible
n me n vic went to the lrt station like 2times or more to pick up some of my frens it started so damn boring!!!!
everyone was shy!!
silence for a while n everyone started to go missing especially my frens @___@(vomit blood)
n the most stupid thing is that i switch on the I-pod n the speaker n i forget to press play it was so stupid whn i finally notice it!!!urgghhh humiliation
after food n everything we someone started a water balloon fight n it was awesome!!!everyone was running around the speakers were all soaked in water the i-pod phones all SCREWED!!!!everyone was wet like i dont know sponges or something!!!haha
everyone was running around n whn i wanted to walk up the stairs SPLUSH!!!!a bucket of water from upstairs was poured down!n i think 1 of the buckets even broke cause someone throw it down!
i mean not everyone but some of us drank a few sips of alcohol n man it was horrible yuck!unless they put more lime juice it taste better a lil other than that it was bitter yucky n totally not cool!!!
well maybe i was a bad planner nothing really went correct accept for the water fight other than that was totally not in the plan!!!URGGHH!!! i hope he was thr=( too bad...
if he was thr maybe it might be more fun i guess haha
i bet my blog really sucked dont it haha but i hope u have fun reading it!!!
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Wha- wha- what did she say?
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did.
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is.

I was so wrong for so long
Only tryna please myself (myself)
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should've treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

28August 2009-pavilion trip

2009-08-29T05:17:00.000-07:00

it was a sunny day as usual!! :)

that day it started wiv a quite silence start but ended wiv a bunch of unfinished topics!

i had so much fun although we were getting a bit bored n out of idea how we should burn our time...

after the movie we though of going to sing k but others dont agree so we follow the crowd...i still feel so sorry >0<>0<

then we tot of fish spa but then it was totally expensive n it looks a lil gross to me...ewww...small fishes biting ur legs...ewww grosss.....And i even meet a few diff ppls!!!kim , reek n johnathan! they r like so cool omg korea mix thai n thai ?i guess lols!!!!its so awesome i wonder if they know thai language ;P

then me n joie went to window shop a lil while the others get a lovely present for jing wen the present was really cute :P

it was really a great day but its so tiring! from pav walk to hang tuah station it was really a long scary walk...i never wanna walk wiv kx to the station at night scary lar!!!!

i hope sean is thr...but he wasn't but its ok cause he call me that night :D n i am glad he did n i get to listen to his voice!

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Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

i dont get it

2009-06-02T19:40:00.000-07:00

today it started off wiv a not so gud mood...all the noice!!!!
sighs...i am so confussed...is it over...
after all this time i have been living in my dreams...all crushed down
because i finally got the answer after so many months i finally got a definition to all this misery...
he loves her...but she dont love him
same as i love him but he dont love me...
is just so hard to understand...
my heart just stop beating that fast when i see him
am i treating him like my brother or what? i dont know
whenever i am with him i feel so happy...never laughed or smile that happily after hl n jy left...
never felt that alive n that not lonely ...
but i still couldn't get my hands off his profile...i just have to keep clicking it keep viewing it...it just made me happier
but i dont know how to explaine this...
i mean thr is so much of a difference between us...he is the top of the world n i am well in one of the worst situation 'the bottom of the earth'....
is just so much fun hanging out wiv him...
but sighs...
i dont get it...
is just too hard for me to understand ...
i am just a normal girl n normal ppl dont mix wiv the best
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Girl our love is dyin
Why can't you stop tryin
I never been a quitah
But I do deserve betta
Believe me I will do bad
Let's forget the past
And let's start this new plan
Why? Cuz it's the same old routine
And then next week I hear them scream
Girl I know you're tired of the things they say
You're damn right
Cuz I heard them lame dame excuses just yesterday
That was a different thing
No it ain't
That was a different thing
No it ain't
That was a different thing
It was the same damn thing
Same ass excuses
Boy you're usless
Whhoooaaaa

memories just brings bak the tears of joy

2009-05-11T01:12:00.000-07:00

whn i done the facebook quiz about what type of friend r u
i remember how we all fight n argue last time..
its just so stupid we r all jerks we fight for little things just for some little thing
we didnt want to stop the fight we dont want to surrender n we actually risk our friendship ...
but at last we all said sorry ... i felt so stupid why did we argue ..
i just felt a load rushing tears on my eyes when i think about it...
its just so stupid...
but yeah fighting n arguing made our friendship more longer lasting...we sure did have loads of fun n trashy habbits even sluttier words n now without all those arguments n fighting noise i just felt like a stranger in the crowd...
i feel so weird n WTF y am i here in this place y ...who is these peeps?? y r they acting like this y do they all have to wear a mask on their face when they r talking to some other ppl...
i mean its obvious that even i am not feeling like myself i just feel like hey am i saying the same freagine thing again n again ?? y am i doing this to myself
this is drivin me nuts...
but 1 thing is that even if i am strong in the outside i notice that i can cry that easily for anything that hurts me...i just cant control the tears i want to hold it bakk but it just falls out that easy...n i dont like it...i dont want to be looked down like the old kido i use to be ...
i am changing for the better trying not to make history repeat itself trying to hold bak my feelings to a boy...but is it working i really dont know ...
i guess i dont even know what is love ...

ouchhh

2009-04-28T23:38:00.000-07:00

5 am in the morning my leg starts to hurt a lot the muscles just cram until the extend i couldn't move...
it last for 5mins then its gone when u just think u could go bak to sleep the pain comes back again this time i couldn't help but to wake my mom up...
its so painful...worst than anything else
i remember all those funny things we said n i just smile n laugh for no reason [kindda crazy rite]
i ask myself so many things ...
like y didnt i join the choir i mean i like singing
y didnt i join the hip hop exam ??i can dance way better than them
y didnt i join the piano exam
so many things than i always wanted to do but just because of no self confidence i drop out
why didnt i start eating less when i am 10 y didnt i ???
so many questions just seems to be twisting n turning in my head
is driving me crazy y didnt we plan more parties when HL n JY is still here
y ?yyyyyyyy can someone give me a perfect answer ??no rite??yea sighs
sighs
it all just go back to zero aint it??

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will u love me if i said i love u ??
will u believe me even if i am not true
can u make me change from bad to good
can u make my life more wonderful than now
i just want a smile
i just want to look at ur eyes all day n night until i can find out y
y did i fall for u
how did u make me do that ......... ..........

happy day :] although its raining

2009-04-12T05:20:00.000-07:00

yesterday i dream of u in my sleep....
maybe wishing to a star that i can dance wiv u works....
although i will never get to dance wiv u but at least in my dream i get to dance wiv u rite ^0^
weird thing is that who is micheal!!!!i just heard the name n i saw ur face n a bicycle with 2seat ....
ur so gorgeous as always....
wow is so great ....nice dream but it was interupted when my moms phone rang n it woke me up T.T
then we went shopping at KLCC awesome its been so long since i have ever been to KLCC
the art galery thingy...so nice and so many nice things that i have never get to stop n slowly take a look...
finally when u really got time u will notice that there r so many beautiful things that u have rejected to take a look at it....
i bought mashmellows n we went to chilis to eat nice nacos brownies n my aunty swollowed a piece of paper when shes eating her sandwich which it wasn't surppose to be in the sandwich so we were laughing all along...
it was so nice to finally sit down n talk to everyone n i enjoyed it a lot...^0^
the supermarket it so hugh n it has japanese things i love it!!!!!!
hope u will know how much i miss ur voice

Addicted .. ..

2009-04-10T06:48:00.000-07:00

the only thing tat i am addicted to u is ur smile ur character n urself...
u got me feeling like the dumb n old self...
i saw u talking to others it was ok i was hoping tat u would come by n talk to me...but maybe the gap was between us...
i was feeling under the weather...
without u talking n joking...everything just seems so normal n weird n not funny...
i remember those days where i step in the court i would see u smiling at me n waving...
today u weren't thr...i was missing u a lot...
maybe u wouldn't know that...
everything was silence n so different...
u would always make us laugh n make me listen to all the things u say abt life love n lots...
i enjoy listening a lot...rather than being the one talking a lot...
sighs...today u never show up is just so not normal i was still hoping tat u would pop out of no where like what u did last time...
but i guess maybe u r really tired n have to rest at home...
even i feel like dying so tired less than 8hours of sleep...tution homework revision n loads of shit
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Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Devil

2009-04-02T06:35:00.000-07:00

2april2009
sunny day but rainy after tat
i walked out
n i tot i wouldnt meet u cuz it was quite late but i was surprised cuz ur thr!!!!
u smiled at me n i smile bakk
u told me tat i was a bad luck
cuz whenever i come by ur frens would run away !!!
lol i talk bakk saying tat they got bored talking to u but then i was kinnda happy lol!!!!!
i am ur bad luck but ur my gud luck!!!!
lols
u winked at me n i was like okayy...chill....he does tat almost everytime i see him
but i am so happy ^W^
lucky me :]
smile darlinggs ;]
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2009-03-31T07:04:00.000-07:00

Remember when I dove into the crowd
And I got a bloody knee under my skin, a mark from wiping out
It brings back the memories
Every bone's been broken
But my heart is still wide open

I can't stop
Don't care if I lose
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
I'm going down in flames for you
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted too

With each scar there's a map that tells a story what a souvenir of Young love's like jumping out
An airplane riding a tidal wave on an ocean of emotion
My heart rips me wide open

I can't stop
Don't care if I lose
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
I'm going down in flames for you
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted too

smile :]

2009-03-31T06:21:00.000-07:00

today 31march2009 is a sunny day ^0^
at first i was moody ..i forced myself not to look at u ...but i just couldn't
n i was hoping tat i could meet u all of a suddent
on the way bakk mommy was siting wiv aunty so we were talkin to karman abt the folio thingy as usual !!!!
duh-uh....tats all my mom is concern of ...
n everyone were like wow wads happening
n i saw him ...
i was smiling without any reasons my facial expression change dramaticly from moody to happy n suprised i saw him winking at me i can tell u is not his eyes problem or my eyes problem it was 100%sure i am serious...!!!!
i was smiling n laughing after tat ...
even if tat thing is not funny i would just laugh at it...just like the buggy car...i was laughing at it!!!!
my mom was like wut happen u meet who y r u laughing hehehehe like tat n i was like ....
faking it...i said duhh tat buggy was funny n cute i wan to drive one !!!!but actually i didnt wan her to know anything abt this !!!!
mission accomplished!!!!yays
i can get 100 marks for faking it yays!!!!
paiiseh i am so gay today !!!!yay happy :]
even if i know he dont likes me i can just tell u tat i have a very great time even if i cant get u i would still be satisfied abt tat :]
it makes me happy to see that u r happy n not lonely
things change n yeah sometimes u dont really have to get something to be happy
maybe just imagining n thinking abt it could make it better :]

smile and dont drop the smile darlings :]

dream of u

2009-03-24T07:33:00.000-07:00

i dreamt of u ...
u were so close
i saw u holding my wrists u were saying hey y is ur hands so small
can i take a look at ur palms n u said is the same
ur smile makes me happy...
but i know that in my heart we were never meant to be
u dont even like me
i like u but u dont like me so i cant help it rite
even if i force myself not to go out i still cant
i just felt so insecure when i didnt see u
that feeling was like y am i here in this hell place
y is everyone not understand how i feel
n i felt a mood swing when u r not thr ...
i dont know how am i going to survive without u ....
i cant control myself when i am inside i felt like crying n felt like finding someone to lean on n blast out my feelings but no one understands me
i have to wear the freagine happy mask to everyone but u ...
i miss u n i love u

wake me up

2009-03-16T21:06:00.000-07:00

i just felt like lying down n close my eyes...
i wonder how long i can stay lying down thr...
waiting for someone that looks like a prince??[too naive thinking it wont happen will it??unless i am in a role play of sleeping beauty maybe i can see a prince lol >w<]
is he gonna show up ?1 year 10 years 100 century ??
will i ever meet him
at least just 1 look i would be happy
thinking too much...tat will not happen
ok got dinner tomorrow yay !!!!
food...n i get to see sean dylan joie justin victor n much more!!!yay i am darn happy we're gonna watch Marley n Me if i am not wrong or i dont mind watching confession of a shopaholic!!!!
oh yea!!!!is been a long time i never watch movie
n we're gona go eat desert at Sweet Chat yay is so pretty
then were gonna go blow water ^0^
excited!!!!!!!
yay^0^
happy but i was still hoping tat i can meet him but oh well i didnt get the chance to ask him out or should i say i didnt even mention abt ''hey whr ya gonna go on da holidays ''*sighs*
wtf forget abt it lar cuz hes goin HK i hope he buy some postcard so i can ask some from him cause i wanted to see mini n mickey mouse it must be really pretty thr
HL we miss u muackxxxx
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If I'd only known
It would break us
I'd have done anything just to save us

'Cause you're all I have
When the world comes down on me
You're the one I love
And I'm begging you to see
You're all, you're all, you're all I have
You are, you are the one I love
You are, you are, you're all I have

You've forgiven me
But it doesn't change
The guilt I feel when you mention his name
No more innocence
How to trust again
Wanna believe that you won't do the same

And every time we fight
We're gettin' closer
I slowly die inside
I'm scared it's over

nOt Eating!!!!!

2009-03-16T01:16:00.000-07:00

ohmwagawddxx........i am so freagine fat i have got to cut down on food n start exercising
he loves me he loves me not he loves me he loves me not!!!
counting the petals on the rose...
i keep thinking y him y not someone else..??
n y do i have to always go outside to see if he's there...
y do i have to act so weird when i see him cant i be more not nervous...
urgghh my hands r sweating n heart is pounding is he gonna come n find me n talk or is he gonna see me stand thr until he goes home..
the questions keep spinning in my head...
1step 2step 3steps yes!!!!!boo ya!!!!he did come n talk to me maybe is because his frens went home so he have to come n talk to me bla bla bla mehhhhh....
gawddd can i stop thinking about him for a day ...
hmmmm....dinner n dance i cant wait for tat day ...i really nid to cut down so tat i wont feel so fat on tat day
n i have got to give a gud impression when i meet my frens i mean on thursday ...gawdd i am so nervous....what do i have to say i mean it has been a long time since i last see them rite??do i have to dress up nicely i mean [duhh so obvious tat i dress up nicely but sometimes in a weird way >=<]
sighs
without HL to tell me weather is nice or not is just bakk to zero...
i wonder if he's partaying wiv his blondies frens...
i hope he remember us...
hmm...i feel like i am repeating this again n again ...what the hell...
is the first thought in my mind rite so i have got to share it in ma bloggg xD
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what am i thinking

2009-03-15T07:54:00.000-07:00

u look at me...yea i got tons of friends...
but the only one that understand what i think how i feel is just a few ...
not much ppl know what i am thinking...
i dont know how to describe this feeling...
is just so EMO...
ok cut the crap..!!!!
get to the POINT!!!!
ok u seee i dont know if its just ngam ngam or izit really faith??
i got no idea...when i tot i couldn't see him tat day he appear but i saw his face wiv surprise...
is just a flash....the gap between me n him...i dont think i can ever reach his level...
is just like a normal rock wiv a diamond...
would it be tat we were never meant to be
or wutt i got no idea i am confussed weather i am inlove or not...
argghhh
is just so confussing but truely when i am wiv him i can just smile n dont have to show my sad face is auto...
i cant control it...
aix....i got no idea
about the dinner n dance i really hope tat he would go but his sis just buy a ticket so probably i would just meet his sis than meeting him...
freaked out!!!!! darn it....i felt like he knew it or wutt...but i hope he din know it ...
ok abt the other guy..XXXXxxxxxxxxx told him no more space for more so sorry but yea i cant cheat love...sorry...
nvm lar this things just folo faith is we r meant to be is gud but id we r not meant to be then is ok maybe i am just thinking too much...
i got no idea someone help me joie T.T...help me
Hsian loong help me...
i miss u all very badly...feeling sick n tired of my life
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I have known you my whole life
When you were ten, you said you'd make me your wife
Eight years later you won me over
Just as I took the world on my shoulders

I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I'm sorry I can't be your world

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life (another life)

The way you're holding on to me
Makes me feel like I can't breathe
Just let me go, just let me go
It just won't feel right inside
God knows I've tried

You know I love you, you know I do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life

In another life, in another life

In another life ...

Oh nOz

2009-03-10T05:48:00.000-07:00

Oh ma goddzzx
am i in love again ...??
everytime i see that charming eyes of yours i just cant resists ...i wanted to look at it longer
when i look at u i feel so myself n i just dont know y after looking at u i am all messed up i keep missing shots >W<
i ask myself what is happening to me i tot i was treating him like a best fren when i realize it was more isnt it??
am i thinking too much i really dont know
i would love to stay this way cause once u had it n when u lose it u will lose it forever...
either u have it forever or u lose it forever like the past...
ppl just walk in to ur life n the best thing is just have a happy pictures n happy days...its already enough
dont have to have it...sometimes having something is more pain then losing someone...
this is cause u know tat he would leave u 1 days...n u just nid to wait for tat day ..unless we r all grown up enough to have a steady one...if not the relationships wont last long...
i really do love u but i am very happy because i can always talk to u n look into ur charming eyes without needing any reasons ^0^
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When you´re 'round
I lose myself inside your mouth
you´ve got brown eyes
Like no one else
Baby make it to me

Again and again
Again, again, again, again
Never stop again and again
Again, again, a-a-again, again
Never stop, oh
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He never really saw me
Or waited when we were hooking up
Yeah he'd a never last
Last week when I was sad
You said that you knew
My eyes change from kinda green
To kinda blue heya

When you´re 'round
I lose myself inside your mouth
you´ve got brown eyes
Like no one else
Baby make it to me

Again and again
Again, again, again, again
Never stop again and again
Again, again, a-a-again, again
Never stop

They tell me if I leave him
Baby would you be there
'cause maybe you could
Be m-m-mine all the t-t-time

hl

2009-02-04T04:43:00.000-08:00

haix
so fast time past
n now HL left us
he went to nz...
i didnt even have time to give him our pix
aix.... ...we already start missing u like hell
r u ok thr??
whr u landed??
did u meet new BFF's??did u meet any bitches any blondies which club or class r u in
hows the lockers
how does the school looks like??is it big
is the weather thr nice n cold
r they many shopping malls thr did u see any sheeps??
did u like it thr without us??
thr is so many questions i want to ask u
too many until its uncountable...
did u miss us??dont worry cause we missed u a lot
my life here in cochrane is havok n tired n sleepy
i got so much to tell u n joie
y do 3 of us have to saperate?? maybe this is life...whn u least expect things to happen they just poof n happen... how long will it go on 1 day 2 months 3 years?? how long
r u gonna remember us in malaysia ur best friends forever
i cant wait for u to come bakk
whn r u coming bakk???
i would like the 3 of us acting like grown up going in to a club n getting throw out of the club ^0^
tat would be so much fun wont it??
u can drive us around n getting cool tattoooooo which r the stickers type *wink*
it would be so happy the 3 of us bakk together rulling everthing making a heck lot of noise being popular togehter
hope tat u can read this ^0^

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waiting...alone...

2009-01-15T05:07:00.000-08:00

i was sorry abt yesterday i swear...
i didnt know u were taking it so seriously...but sighs...
i waited for ur msg for the whole night until the next morning i send u a few msg but u haven reply...only after i talk to ash u reply me...
sighs....i tot u were gonna come to cochrane but tat was just my thinking so i waited out thr for 2 hours more not just waiting for u but waiting for ur msg...
i asked u if u brought ur phone to school wiv u n u say yes...
maybe repyling my msg in the toilet would really be tat difficult for u ...
i dont mind...
i tried to hold back my tears whn my frens keep insulting me...they say tat u dont love me they say tat u r not tat gud looking...
i was trying to smile at them...
but i fake a smile...
after he n she went off....my tears came down...i got no control of it...it just roll down like a ball... ...
i waited n waited...i kept crying i told myself not to cry...
but i cant help it... ...
after u reply my msg i felt a little bit better...
but i feel more sad whn i see tat u say if u dont reply my msg ur jie would kill u ...i was like...okayyy i can pretend tat everything in the world is blind including me...i cant see it...i can fake it....yea i'm cool....cause u told me tat u 'wanted' to reply me adi..
sometimes maybe i just have to let go a little bit n let him feel free to run...
yeah...i figure it out too...homeworks n more homeworks u can go free...
i wouldn't not let u go anywhere
u wan to go where then go ba i will try not to ask whr u r goin... i really nid to relax a bit...if not i 'm gonna get a heart pain...like today...i was worrying abt u the whole day n i couldn't stay put...my heart is really pain...is like how u feel when u r alone in a ghost house...
it was so pain n cold...
but is ok^^
everything will be ok de lar love u honey ^^
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這世界很複雜混淆我想說的話我不懂太複雜的文法
什麼樣的禮物能夠永遠記得住讓幸福別走得太倉促
雲和天蝶和花從來不需要說話斷不了依然日夜牽掛
唱情歌說情話只想讓你聽清楚我愛你是唯一的傾訴

寫一首簡單的歌讓你的心情快樂
愛情就像一條河難免溢I到波折
這一首簡單的歌並沒有什麼獨特

我一直在思考讓你瞭解我的好卻忘了常常對你微笑
失去的忘記的我滓氻O去彌補你是我最珍貴的財富

寫一首簡單的歌讓你的心情快樂
愛情就像一條河難免溢I到波折
這一首簡單的歌並沒有什麼獨特
好像我那麼的平凡卻又深刻 (深刻簡單的歌)

簡單的歌寫一首簡單的歌讓你的心情快樂愛情就像一條河
難免溢I到波折這一首簡單的歌
並沒有什麼獨特好像我那麼的平凡卻又深刻

lost and not found department

2009-01-12T06:43:00.000-08:00

i was suddenly angry when u ask me abt my cousin again...
i re-typed my msg 3 times
3 edition
i was so angry n pissed because these few days u were always asking me abt her n i felt as if thr was a cold gap between us tat u didn't know ... ...
n i am like honey i am a girl i got feelings 1 is my cousin n the other one is my bf what can u make me think
i am tat type of person tat gets jealous just for a little thing because she is so pretty n i am just a ugly pig...they r sms-ing everyday...
i dont want it to be like the last time how u sms me...
i am scare tat u would leave me ...
the type of feeling tat u would never understand...
whn i am typing the msgs my tears just came rolling down...
i cried n cried i was angry but i didn't want u to know i was jealous n i wanted to tell u how i feel but i was afraid tat u would leave me .... ...tats the reason i canceled tat msg for 3 times....
u told me tat was just normal sms n i am like...ok yea en ok i will try to understand...
but what i wanted to tell u is tat i want someone tat cares abt me...tat wont make me cry or jealous...
i dont just wan oh yeah i see oo...sighs no one will understand how i feel
tats the reason y ppl say guys will never understand y girls feel jealous whn they get too close wiv other girls...
sighs... ...
_________
PCD-i hate this part...a song tat i listened whn i am sad...
were driving slow, through the snow, on5th avenue
and right now, radio's all that we can hear
now we ain't talked since we left it's so overdue
it's cold outside but between us it's worse in here..
the world slows down
but my heart beats fast right now
i know this is the part where the end starts...
i can't take it any longer
thought that we were stronger
all we do is linger
slipping through our fingers
i don't wanna try now
all thats lefts is goodbye to
find a way that i can tell you
i hate this part right here
i hate this part right here
i just can't take these tears
i hate this part right here

confussion ...

2009-01-11T04:42:00.000-08:00

[a happy day i guess][11jan2009][9:06PM]
i felt a sharp pain going through my chest...
is a feeling tat i never had so far...
i felt like a cold distance between us...
well i would say this today n get over it tomorrow
but is just like very normal girl...
if u see ur guy out thr talking too much to other girls u would feel jealous rite..
if u say no i am very sure tat u r lying...
i feel jealous too...what if i am the one talking to guys out thr how would u feel??
jealous heart broken thinking too much!!!
i bet u will feel this way rite
not tat i dont trust u but is just tat jealousy kills it kills everything even urself...
it killed me now
every word i type i would hide i wouldn't want u to know tat i am jealous i wouldn't want u to feel sorry
i wouldn't want u to feel guilty...
i dont know how to say this but is just tat its hard to explaine...
sighs complications i trust u but is just tat the jealousy inside of me is taking part of me bit by bit one by one...

a poem for all of u
love, life , who u r
____________
love
what is love?
is it a horrible thing or the most beautiful thing?

tell me what do u feel whn everyone around u never understands who u r
the type of girl tat use to party hard n talk the same thing for an hour and never get bored of it
finally became someone tat is acting like she can be happy everyday even if things happen

she can be happy at the outside but does anyone know how much sadness is inside her?
no one understands
maybe family problems will only make us grow up n understand what is life

life is unfair no one is perfect
even Britney spears the one tat people r dying to be is not perfect
everyone acts in life n is just part of the routine
when u get use to it
it will be ok
but if u're not use to it u will just end up crying for hours because no one remembers ur name
__________________________

"sometimes you just have to pretend like everything is okay n just cry inside ... crying because of no reason maybe the reason is tat i dont understand what u r thinking....
is so confusing and i am useless...i dont understand what u r thinking...dont know how u feel but all i know is tat u will always be happy because u got a bunch of frens family n me ^^
no matter how unhappy i am it will be over tomorrow n tats life
if u start keeping too much unhappyness n never forget about it , it will become a monster in u ....so yea after writing this i will be more happier tomorrow ^^"
new day new step new creation of life...tats how it rolls

first day of school

2009-01-04T22:32:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 4 in the morning...i was so excited to go to school
whn i go to my class...i feel like something was missing is like different faces laughter sound heart beats...
joie was missing hsian loong was missing too
but i missed most was my beloved yao...
in school i felt like i am standing in the middle of the crowd whr everything is moving so fast everyone was pushing n walking no one stoped...
even if i pass by someone i know they would just turn around n walk away i met 3 person tat did the same thing MM,E,S...is like i am a thin air even if we pass by we r surpose to act like we dont know each other...
this reminds me of form 1 ...it was so difficult to find someone tat truely treats u with the heart...[i mean frens not bf i was too young to think abt relationships bakk then]
i missed yao so much...i cant stop thinking abt him...
everyone was like so happy but y am i feeling so weird ...is like i am acting happy...i dont understand y ...i feel tat without joie n hl i am nothing but a bug the tiniest one...
_______________________
你不是真正的快樂
你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了然後才後悔著

你不是真正的快樂
你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂
你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快樂
你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓悲傷全部結束在此刻
重新開始活著

27 ^^ a day to remember

2008-12-27T07:08:00.000-08:00

this is a day tat i will always remember n smile whenever i think bak how many things we shared
^^ although we cant see each other every second every minute every hour or everyday but 2 days 2 hour is already enough ^^
u make me remember all the happiest moments in my life
u make me understand how to cherish someone that will stay in ur life if u hold it tight but if u let go u will miss the chances of sharing happiest moments
i hold on tight to u i wanted to tell u how much i love you
if i had a chances i would want to stand under the stars at night with you ^________^ even if its just 1sec i would be happy n it will also be the happiest moment
some people might think what is she thinking 1sec what can you do ?!!but the point is to be with the once u love even if its just a second or a blink...
no matter what happen i will be by ur side , side by side when u need me
u might not see this post but is ok as long as u know that i love u is already enough ^__^
__________
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me
something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I
can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I
don't know, I don't know)

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sorry ... i am really sorry

2008-12-21T08:06:00.000-08:00

1 min 2 min 3 min is already past 12...
i left my phone up stairs so i forgot to reply him...
he send 2 msg n i replied..
i keep waiting for his msg...
i wait ...just like how long he waited for my reply...
i am so sorry...
i might not be perfect..i might not be smart..i might not always reply ur msg's right on time...
i am sorry ...
i know how you feel because i waited for ppl's reply all the time...
i am sorry u have to wait ...
so sorry dear dont be mad at me...
i felt like crying when u ignore me...
i am so sorry T.T...
i always reply ur msg late sometimes even never reply...
i know u r very angry but dont worry ...i wont leave u ...n i promise this would be the last time i reply ur msg's late [maybe not last time lar but i will try my best to reply u ASAP]
sorry dear hope u dont angry me...

2december2008

2008-12-04T05:10:00.000-08:00

late write blog cause tat day bo time write >___<
we went out to ts
n i had the greatest time...
but was quite boring at the roller maybe cause too little ppl
but then damn shock!!!!
i play train wiv WY JY SJ KX n a kor kor dunno hu lai de>____<
n then play another one hold hand turn de also shock
i fell down 3 times...T.T
fall adi still kena scold by eveyone except for dear
T.T....so pain o ...
but i had a lot of fun
twilight okok only but the funniest is the uncle at the bak of us laugh until very loud n then he still hit until jean de head [the jacket lar] but too bad kx never sit beside her aiyyyoooo!!!!
damn man...
most sweet is when we run to the bridge it was driziling a little...n when wy see me he [secret ^^] very happy...
took 2 pix
but then -take until nicer than me ...so yeng^___&
but too bad din take pix at sw the photo booth...><
it was the happiest day
his hand so big o ^___^
very happy can [???]ask me if u want...
he was so cute on tat day
but i over wear lar tats y i feel so weird
n then i told myself next time whn i go out in da future i would just wear normal ...
n be myself...
ily43ver dear...
mwahsss...
my 1 n only dear...
____________________
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
________________________

is a never ending story n is just the start my dear

27 november2008 happiest day ML

2008-11-29T19:21:00.000-08:00

although today not 27november lar but also nvm
cause the day be4 not enough time blog...>__<
the day be4 yesterday was the happiest day of my life^__^
maybe happiest day in the month lar...!!!
first i went window shopping n i saw this really cute clothes >__so cute the outfits ^___^
then it was raining ...
so on the way home i receive sms from justin saying tat he got his report card so i quickly check the mail box!!!
n i really got tat freaking report card...
i was like ok
this is the biggest day of my life [maybe not] but i was so excited!!!
n when i open up n see booya!!!!!
number 3 in da class n i got changed class...snap...change to 3B but also ok i get to hang out wiv my frens cause their just next door^___^
n then at night i tell ywy ily then WCLL^___^
it was such a great day!!!
we were planing whr to hang out
i even chat wiv joie it was such a wonderful day i got ton's of things to say when i see them
aww man i already miss them so muchy^___^
27November is the most precious day n most memorable day ...n the happiest day ever…
i hope i can share more memories with yao...
more sweet memories n more better memories^___^
ILY YWY muackx!!!!!!

N btw this is my blog I can write shit in it n u don’t have to give a damn^___^blekxxx booobbbuuueeeeiiii

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am i in love again...

2008-11-26T06:54:00.001-08:00

i got no idea...
but i have been having weird feelings...
everyday every second n every minute i will be looking at my phone...
i keep asking myself y u haven reply...the minutes tick 9 10 11 u still haven reply...
i felt hopeless...
whn u talk to St n say tat i love him...
i told u tat i dont...i dont love him...because i love ... ...
everytime u late reply me i would be like'omg wad happen y he so late reply de...he dota ar..he sleeping ar??'many question came out of my mind...
i kept asking myself
y am i so worry...
he die adi also not my problem lar...
but then...
i found out tat...i cant go a day without thinking him...
i made him angry n he say he can forgive me if i say iloveyou to him...
at first i cant type it out...but after tat he sms me...
n i actually type the 3 words in...
i bet he was thinking tat it was just a lie...
but is not...i guess he will never know...
i was hoping i can go out wiv him tomorrow
but it all ended up tat it was cancel n he is going wiv him cousin on friday...
haix...
i was hoping tat he can go out wiv us next week to watch twilight n go roller...
but i dont think he would wan to go...
speechless over the edge and now breathless ....

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urgghhhh!!!!!pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-25T07:21:00.000-08:00

i cant believe it!!!
u actually say tat to him..
i told u i dont love him anymore
but y do u have to say tat....
i am so angry n pissed off the reason y i dont want to mension it
i feel like kicking his freaking ass !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i told u a million times i dont love him anymore
the day i see tat conver i told myself it was the end i wont love him anymore
but y do u have to go n say such things....
i dont love him i really dont y cant u believe me...
forget about it...!!!!urgghhhhhhhhhh .....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so frustrated n angry feel like biting a gummy bear's head off...too bad no gummy....!!!!
get it YWY I DONT LOVE HIM!!!!
DONT UNDERSTAND WANT ME TO SAY IT AGAIN IDONT LOVE CST!!!!!!!!!
i might love him in the past but not in the future...i dont want the history to repeat again i dont want to love him anymore ....because ... ... ...[cannot say... ...]

love someone

2008-11-24T00:01:00.000-08:00

everyone has a mask but all of the mask is different everytime u do something infront of different people...
infront of my frens i take off my mask n enjoy but infront of the past i wore every single mask i can just to hide myself everytime i go through it ...
just like last time i tried to take my mask off but i guess it was harder than i tot...
i hide my true self all along just to fit in...
but i guess tat was impossible...
i wonder if tat day i never go up during science lesson using tat stairs , i wouldn't met him
n i wouldn't end up so sad...
if i never meet him be4 i would never have such happy memories but yet so horrible and pain...
i would have more hope n less pain...
_______________
Look Around Dont U Feel Something Missing
Im The One U Promised U Would Love
But U Got Ahead So Far Away While Im Holding On Plz Turn Around
I See You But I Dont Feel You
Cant Get Ur Attention To Save My Love
Look Back And See Me Now Dont Let Me Down Plz Turn Around

I Think I Musta Gave Too Much
Cause I Felt That The Robe Was Getting Rough
Suddenly I Felt Lonley Out Here
I Look Beside Me To Find Ur Not There
Said U Would Love And Protect Me
All I Have Are The Words U Left Me
Here I Stand With The Plans In My Head
This Cant Be The Kinda Love That You Said
Dont Leave Me Out Here All Alone
Im Still Right Here Where'd U Go
_____________________

ahhhh!!!!sorry mama sorry mama

2008-11-22T22:08:00.001-08:00

sorry leh mama
yesterday promise jor u 12 call u say happy birthday
but then i sleep jor suddenly wake up only remember nid to say happy birthday
but then adi over 12 liao almost 1 ...
reli sorry i sms u jor no call u cause my mom sleeping i scare she scold me lol
T.T~~~sorry
after tat cant sleep jor yesterday night lol hand pain #____#......
sorry o
new day today ^___^
cant decide whn to go sing k again n watch movie n roller @___@

JY
+HL
+CW
=BFF'S losers FO!!!
watch ghost movie lol quarentin i think is tat spelling lar...lol
*____*

crying

2008-11-20T23:07:00.000-08:00

yesterday night i felt so sad...
i was just chatting wiv my fren well for quite long lar ...then i wanted to say bye bye adi ...
but my mom slapped me...
2 tight slap...
i cried...i told myself is ok...
i send a msg to him n i said yeah i mom close the com so i never reply him...
i told myself not to cry...but i still cry i kept on crying
i am like oh my god
what the hell am i crying for ...
i dream of him... tat night ..
it was just so sweet... ...
>_<....
all the funny things we've go through...lol^__^.. ..
is juat so weird..y am i dreaming abt him again i tot i am over him..
sighs ...making pudding now^__^

empty

2008-11-17T23:16:00.000-08:00

i look at the sky today n i was thinking...
y is the sky so plain...y is the sky always blue , white but sometimes is so dark n horrible...i keep asking myself y ..
n i figured out tat the sky is like ur feelings whn u r sad the sky will become dark n it will rain...
y cant the sky be colourfull y cant it be perfect...
it take 1 second to forget u but it took me forever to forget you...i walked away tat day i told myself is i walk away they would be happier he would think tat i am over him...every step tat i take is a mistake if i walk back to him...
he is like a cold wall n i am stupid enough to ram my head on it a few times n say 'ouch tat is so darn pain...i am so sad' but i still ram my head on it...i bet ppl would be like 'woaaahhh crystal r u stupid he dont love u cant u forget him u r such n dumbass!!!!'
yeah i am such a dumbass i think again n again y am i doing this to myself...!!!
finally i know y ...is because i felt tat no one is around me...felt so lonely...for the first time
is like standing in the rain wiv a bunch of frens tat r dummies...they dont really know me too well...
all i know is evrytime whn i talk to them they just cant listen ..is like i am talking nuts to a few beans ...it doesnt make any sense...sighs...single life really do suck...but sighs..
i just cant forget his face...his features...his height oh my lord..!!!!
shit man crystal !!!shut up!!!only a few person knows wad i am thinking n wad i feel n wad kind of person i am...
now i din chat wiv mama for a week after wad happen...sighs...i shouldn't have ignored him...y did i ignored him tat friday...it just happen so fast n the next thing u know u got no more frens in the world...
is just like a sharp knife poking ur head...
sighs...whn u got everything in the world u just found out tat u didnt nid them n the one tat nidded u have been rejected...i told u tat i am ok but i turn bak n walk away because i didnt want to let u know tat i am crying....
....
if your so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
you say you love me
why aint you here?
im so sick of your love songs
so sad and slow
but i just cant turn off the radio

gotta fix that calendar i have
that's marked july 15th
cause it seems like you forgot
that was our anniversary
when i heard your song it
made it hard to erase your memory
now when i hear your song i know it's there for me
i cant believe that you're
...............
i really dont know who i love now......i look bak at the past n i say wow i should have rejected him than let him play wiv my feelings...i dont trust love ...waiting for the day to past whr i cant finally know who i really love him or him...lol

sad... ...

2008-11-14T07:09:00.000-08:00

y no one understand me de..... .....
y i feel so sad...everyone blame me...
i am also a human not a robot...i got feelings...
i feel so tired...
feel like nobody...
mama dont understand how i feel...i already got love problems...
cant anyone understand... ...
i felt like today i am at the edge of no where alone...
......
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

.......
in the edge of ''no one cares''...
tried to cry but no tears came rolling down my cheek...maybe is because i am use to this...since i am little...use of going through the rough times myself...

thinking

2008-11-12T02:36:00.000-08:00

i keep thinking again n again...
whats wrong wiv me...
i seem to have missed him...
everytime i see him on9 i would just tel yself u must forget him...
he likes someone else already but i just cant erase the memories tat r far buried....
the song tat we shared brought out every single tears...
i told myself is long gone but i kept crying n comfort myself ...''dont worry he will come back ...one day''
i am still waiting for tat one single day tat he would come back...
y am i doin this...i feel so tired but yet i still want to grab on tat useless string...y
i still cant get an answer tat i am satisfied...
do i reli have to wait til tat day he walks up to me n say 'crystal i dont love u get lost i dont want to see u '...do i really have to wait for tat to happen only i can get over him...
i feel so lonely all of a suddent....joie is moving to SSG next year HL is goin Nz next year...i feel tat the whole world of people r all gone...n i am the only one left behind....
i really dont want to be the one left behind by the others...
i guess is the end of me....is the end of my happiness...[maybe not tat far..]
haix...
at worst thing my mom dont let me get my second peircing on the top of my ears...i plan on getting one without telling my mom ...is me n joie's frenship peircing i guess!!!!lol...no mood to laugh jor

given up

2008-11-09T21:19:00.000-08:00

u happy then ok le...
sorry o always bother u all...
haix...
nvm i se xin le...
hope u will forever ba...
the memories we had be4 is in the past i wont take bak n see de....
i will be happyn n move on...
sorry to bother u
bye bye...

give up

2008-10-24T08:23:00.000-07:00

24october2008 (11:23PM) (raining again)
u know i keep thinking
y am i the one getting hurt n u just stand thr like nobody's buisness!!!
i am fed up wiv u get it ?!
i want to give up get it??
bla bla bla...!!!sick of your shit sick or your face sick of your words tat makes me fade
get it!!!i hate u...
i waant to give up because no matter how far i run you will never chase me back no matter how pain i drop you will never ask y
even today i see you i felt like yea i am giving up...
is so dark deep down there n i dont want to go in any further..
i cant take it...
maybe i really dont love you tat much...
sorry...i dont love you like i did yesterday ....

emo

2008-10-17T23:50:00.000-07:00

rejected

2008-10-17T23:31:00.000-07:00

18october2008(2:49PM)(emo day)
i should have known u would reject me!!!
y am i so stupid foolish n retarded to love u tat deep love u tat hard..
do everything in the world just to get your heart
in the end i never tell him tat i love him cause my fren asked him n he say dont want to hurt me so ask me not to say
i know tat he love someone else...!!!!
y do i still want to ram my heart on tat fuckin wall...tat fuckin hard bloody heart wall
it hurts my head...it hurts my heart...no tears came down because maybe is just too hard until i felt like sleeping forever..
loving someone is not fun is hardcore n sad...

to all the fuckin retardes tat left us alone
u know wad it feels like to get left out n get leave behind in the dark i guess u dont know rite cause u never get rejected by someone u reli love...
u know getting rejected is painful wad u say i will keep it in my heart forever n if one day u come bak n say i love u i will just walk away n say sorry i dont love u like i did yesterday ...
sorry but if u really want me to give up yea ok i will try to forget about u

thin air that he would never feel

2008-10-17T08:42:00.000-07:00

17october2008 (11:43 PM) (thin air day)
today is PMR de finish day i very happy for him...
i think again n again want to tell him or not...
but at last i force myself not to tell him u see if i tell him he might not like it n dun wan to be kor n mui wiv me...but if he loves me of course it would be the best solution lar...
but i think again i better not say lar later ppl say i am a fool plus i wan to play "an lian"...haix...
today after school i saw him...i think he saw me also...
but i walk past i want to say hi to him but he was too busy staring at other ppl...so i just walk pass infront of him...he never say anything...i felt like a wind to him...the unwindy type but he just dont want to feel it...
i was so sad...i felt like crying...he treat me so cold n unfrenly i still wan to love him...ppl think tat i am crazy...
i can talk about him for hours...just thinking about him makes my mind go physico...
but is just tat...everytime i see him i get this weird n scare feeling i just dunno how to talk to him ...although he is quite a frenly guy but i found it stupid n useless if u ask me to talk to him...my heart pounds very fast n i get scared by his eyes...is like tigers or lions...is damn scary...i dunno y my heart pounds over 1000+++
n i start to blush...i hate it whn i get ignored n i just sit thr with a blank stupid watery face wiv my mouth half open...i guess is genetic problems my brains just like to daze at the air for like a few mins then i will come back...-.-''

i knew it

2008-10-14T07:07:00.000-07:00

14october2008 (10:07PM) (its a raining day n it felt dark )
for once...i felt so happy because i'm goin to tell him tat i love him...
but y do i feel tat he didnt like me anymore...y
i am once so happy but i cried for him for tat paper for him not looking at me...y did i cry i told myself y am i so sad y am i crying....
i can have the best things on earth tat i never even wanted...
all i wanted was for u to notice me just notice me n look at me once...just tat once i dont nid more...
i feel like hiding my feelings i dont wan to tell u tat i love u
i cry i dream tat u say u dont love me in the start n u break a jar of stars tat i made for u n u slap me y do i dream things like this...
i dream only ed is thr for me whn i needed him...y ...
i cried again n again cause i dont know y everytime i see u i cry...but i love you...no matter wad happen i will still love u even if u make me cry until thr is no more tears i will still love u
even if u slap me again n again i will still forgive u ..no matter wad u do it makes me go crazy i cannot take it anymore...
everyone ask me to tell u how i feel but i am scared tat u would reject me n we cant be kai kor n kai mui anymore...
i keep running away from the truth because i dont want to see u reject me
i love u ...i really do...
i decided to tell u i love u no matter what the answer is i'll make sure i put a smile on my face cry n walk away PS:ILOVEU

is this a trap or someting?!

2008-10-03T23:14:00.000-07:00

4/10/2008 (3:25PM) full of question day!!
yesterday i sms dumpfish n i told him tat day whn i go 9wang ye i saw a lot of my school frens they all also very tall...i very sad cause i am short
then he say tall guys like girls short...
then he ask me u like a tall boy ar
then i say ya how u know de smart!!!
then he ask who izit...i ask him to guess...
i say he very tall de ..okok looking but sor sor dei de...
i reli dunno he can guess until is him or not...
haix...i dunno wan tell him i love him or not...later he reject me later he dun wan to talk to me liao...
but i think be4 liao after he PMR n after i exam i sms him say i love him...but dunno if it works or not...but i still have to try...
i lose 1 time de chance liao i dun wan to lose another time...

pray pray at 9 wang ye

2008-10-01T09:43:00.000-07:00

i went to KLCC today ..
went to kinokunia to see some books...
bought 1 book n then see some korea n jap dictionaries so i go n 38 open n see reli very nice to read cause all in ping ying swt...
i want to learn both language but mom say too expensive so cannot learn lor
today i go pray ..
9 wang ye reli very many ppl go ...
plus i saw the 'feng ling' very nice but so expensive ar i small round shape one cost RM15 so my mom dun let me buy...buy food eat liao keep stomach ache..shit
nid to use to bathroom ....
eat wrong thing T.T
pray pray tat time hehe i acctually a bit sellfish lar i ask for another 1 more extra wish is tat dumpfish can be happy n PMR all A's...
hope he always happy ...even if he dont notice me i will be supporting him lar of course duh...
haix...
PS:ILY

wo ai ni

2008-09-30T20:37:00.001-07:00

我的快樂 - 錦繡二重唱

徘了徊了走了　錯了哭了痛了
累了倦了睏了　煩了亂了冷了　都是真的
瘋的想的念的　不安的焦慮的
複雜的夢過的　擁有的失去的　怎麼忘呢
你坐過的沙發寬了你愛的音樂停了
我等著你等成了擺設

我的你的他的　好的壞的難的
灰的藍的黃的　酸的甜的苦的　都還記得
非常想要忘的　絕對不能忘的
我心要還你了　真的不行要了　只得放了
環島的火車載著我第幾天了
忽然發現這一刻我不想你了

我的快樂　會回來的
只要清楚曾愛得那麼深刻
不准問值不值得
我的快樂　會回來的
離開不是誰給了誰的選擇

我的快樂　會回來的
只要清楚曾愛得那麼深刻
不准問值不值得
我的快樂　會回來的
離開不是你給了我的選擇

瘋的想的念的　不安的焦慮的
復雜的夢過的　擁有的失去的　怎麼忘呢
非常想要忘的　絕對不能忘的
我心要還你了　真的不行要了　只得放了
放了...　忘了...

song lyrics

2008-09-30T20:34:00.000-07:00

I'm OK - 元若藍

放心I'm OK Go Away 忍住我的淚
記得你曾經愛我對不對
所以I'm OK 無所謂該向你感謝
在我心底那玫瑰曾開得很美

趕在今天陽光很燦爛
特地穿上你送我的白色球鞋
只是還不習慣街道那麼寬
想躲進你口袋找溫暖
從前是場重感冒要靠勇氣才醫得好
雖然明天走不到戀愛要重考我還是會笑

現在我邁開大步走一直向前走不許再回頭
經過了你的愛我的回憶夠精采

你的愛在心底不會枯萎

PS:I LOVE YOU DUMPFISH
wo ai ni ...xi wang ni zhi dao..

why why ??T.T

2008-09-30T08:02:00.000-07:00

30 September2008 (11:11PM) (crying for you to come back pls listen to me)

wad happen
y camp fire tat night i am mad at him
y y
yesterday only i know tat
tat day camp fire he acctually send me a chinese msg saying if u forward this msg the one u love will say i love u to u in 1 months time...
y i thought is a chain letter whn is not!!!y ....i love u so much but y ??
y i missed the time y i missed it..
i cried...my tears just kept rolling down my cheek i just hope he knew tat even though he dump me but i haven move on...i really love u dumpfish!!!!
i love u pls ...
if u give me another chance u want me to cut myself i also will do...
i love u ....pls i hope i can change time n then i hope i can turn back time to tat night camp fire...
if i would just listen to your explenation then it will be ok rite
y....
y ....pls listen to me i just hope u notice me
i love this song because i feel my heart n yours together whn i hear this song
I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
Now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you

[Chorus]
The 7 things I hate about you (oh you)
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and it's silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
And when you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

[Chorus]
The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
And when we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined everything's alright
I want to be
With the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you
You do (oh)

dumpfish...i love u ...i dont know y but even if u ignore me i will just keep loving u until the day i cannot love u ...
i dont know how to say this but is just tat ppl ask me wad is so gud abt u tat i cant move on...i told them tat you've got my heart...tats y i cant move on...
i love you...

PS:ILOVEYOUxOxOXo

single

2008-09-28T03:44:00.000-07:00

28-9-2008 (empty day) (7:07PM)
u know being single is not tat bad after all
lolx
i get to contact wiv all my frens
do things that i love to do
play rough wiv guys
somehow i always lie on my bed n look at the cellin i found out that
whn there is no love in your heart everything seems to be useless
and i keep loving the guy i love but i never tell him that i love him
i just kept quite n i just hope that he is happy then i am alright with it
even if one day he get another gf is still ok
as long as he remember me is ok but i think is not possible...
i kept listening to the jay chow's song-cai hong
i even learn the lyrics
i hope one day he would know that i love him n he loves me
n we go together
but izit possible i still dont know
maybe cause i am too childish n stupid
n naive to go with other guys just to forget him
and when i stop i notice that is useless i cant forget him because i love him
i can do anything just to change myself into a better person to love him
PS:i love u dumbfish!!!u dont notice it i am so tired someone love me please

argueing day

2008-09-12T07:42:00.000-07:00

12September2008 (10:46PM) weird fucking day
today i argued n showed face to HL cause somehow i piss him off then he piss me off
he ignored me for like a few hours then i keep talking to him n he keep ignoring me then i saw him smile then after that ok jor...
lol
HL is one easy goin person...
i cant wait for sunday class...
^___^
but i dun wan to be the class clown tomorrow T.T
tat time i wear until a bit too lala cause i wore a skirt n then wore a pants socks...
lala cause i scare later rain will cold so i wear another pants socks...
aiya i hate the guys!!!!Fuck emmm!!!
tomorrow i wearing a normal white -T and a stupid pants if they still say my name among the guys lar tat means something fishy is happening...!!!
fuck u dac gene , and the gangs...WTF
ass holes!!!

on msn i dont know wad to talk to u ...F***

2008-09-10T06:03:00.000-07:00

10September (915PM) (tired day goin to sleepy land...headache)

i really dont know wad to talk to u ...
i dont know y ...
i really hope whn i say 'i dont bother u lar' u would say is ok and tell me wad heppen..
but u didnt...
is ok i understand...is really hard to open a topic whn u dont even understand him...
i really dont know y whn i want to talk to u my head starts to ache...
i dont know y T.T
i felt like crying...
i felt like everything is gone...everything is over even our brother sister relationship would bomb in 1 day...
all these times i have been stupid enough to hold back n wait ...
hold back n keep peeping at the back ...
u know y is because i hope u would come running to me n say i am sorry to leave u alone tat time...
but i understand is very hard to do that whn u dont even know wheter he love's u or not...
i dont know y i felt so scare tat one day everyone would leave me ...
n i would be the only one standing....
everytime i think of it i would sweat...n i would feel like crying is just like emotionnal unstabble...
whn i see him tat day he really look hurt...
i was hopping he would really notice me but then he didnt again...but is ok
i understand i am not as important as his other sisters...
i undertsand...i am in his past n i am never going to bring him back even if i want to he wouldn't agreee...
because he dont love me anymore..
i am just like a piece of glass...he cant see me i cant see him
i am really tired today...
really tired...
dont know y is just like i hope tat someone would run to me n hug me n ask r u ok...
but then no...
is ok...i understand...
today i saw chang zhao's brother chang yee...
i walk pass him because eventually i tot he dont know me n he was in the car but he wind the window down...
i walk pass him another time because my mom wasnt infront n i look at him...he smile n wave gudbye to me...
he is really a nice guy ...but michelle yee they all treat him as a bad guy...reason y i cant tell it out in the public (i mean in my page cause million's of u might open my blog in see )...
if he was my bf it should be quite nice...he is a nice guy^__^
ok crystal stop dreaming...!!!!is not gonna happen...!!!!!!
woahhhh.....god i've been writing this post for the past 20min's i got to run
tomorrow night only i write again

continue of the story happy bunny day

2008-09-09T08:04:00.000-07:00

is just tat what goes around comes around...
last year FXXX dump me for no reason n this year someone else dump him again lol
whn u r really say...tears dont talk only music talk...
today i sang 'Forever Love' song ...
it reminds me how lucky n happy am i to have a bf like him
but even if i turn the time back nothing is goin to go right because i dont know whr is his heart...
but all i know is ----is wiv him...
i dont know...
i wont understand...y
he hurt me so much y cant i forget about him...
crystal forget abt him...
he is not worth your tears your time but y am i still holding back...
the song 'i stay in love'...
the lyricx...
*We said let go but I kept on hangin' on
Inside I know it's over you're really gone
It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do
Baby baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well" each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now no matter what I do
Baby baby, I stay in love with you*
this part...
it really describe abt me...
he told me to let go but i still insists to hang on...
is really hardcore...

9September2008 (11:16PM) END OF THIS STORY CONTINUE TOMORROW IF I GOT THE KINDDA FEELING TO CONTINUE...

happy bunny day

2008-09-09T07:56:00.000-07:00

today
is a weird day
everyone seems so unusual...
n i swear to god tat i am goin to be tall !!!!!
i am goin to go 4 basket ball ^_^
i must be tall
i wan archeive my goals...
i wan to be tall study hard
i also wan to be happy cheerful...
i wan everything
i wanna be the boss of u !!!!
this is one of my weird days...god JXXXXX acctually not asume lar but then i feel tat he say tat i am fat
but hu care lar
god fat mai fat...i dun belive i will be fat forever
i am goin to be slim
no one is gonna stop me from being tall^___^
haix...FXXX broke up wiv his gf...
is the gf fei him...he look very sad...
just like last time how i feel
many questions y he/she fei me y ..am i not gud enough for him...
gimmie an explenation...
feel like wanna cry but then cannot cry...
cause ppl say whn u r really sad ..really sad.. no tears will flow down your cheeks...only the kindda sharp pain will poke into your heart causing u to lose your appitide lose your mood...
lose everything...
is just like 1 day god give u everything the next thing u know god keep everything bak...
is really sad ...

stuck in a lift

2008-09-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

today 8September 1147PM (funny scary day)

lol today whn i go tution i saw 2 frens outside the lift
they were sweating like nutttssss
i go infront n ask them wad happen??
they say they got stuck in a lift n they pull the door only can come out...
we went by the bak door...
cool it was so scary like horror movie scene
but then also nothing happen
sien o ....T.T
boring....

sad day...

2008-09-07T09:06:00.000-07:00

7September2008 (raining day in my heart)

today..i went for hip hop class nd i had fun but then i dance like a winnie the pool so fat...
at night when i chat wiv mamakarloon only i know this sad news abt his internet fren...
she passed away...
y is god so unfair...
those tat should die they never die..
but some of them tat r not surpose to die they go at the wrong time wrong place...
and the left us all alone...
but we will morn in our hearts...
no matter who u are wad u look like u will forever be in our hearts...
dont worry abt whr to go we will always be by your side...
no matter how far we will still be with u ...
dont worry...
yesterday 6 september i suddently cried at night no reason...
i just dream of an accident and i cried...
cried out loud...it was a bad dream...
it was a bad day...
i dont want anyone to leave me
i also dont wan anyone to leave now...
is not a nice time to leave...
but then life is god's creation no matter how much time lord gives us
we will appreciate it...
i guess my opinion is tat
god gave us this time so tat we can explore...
so we will use this time to do stupid things make histories...
make everyone laugh
have fun
crank it up dance like a sheep...
no matter wad we do...its still a very precious thing...
we must all appreaciate it...T.T
this is so sad...

i hate my parents...

2008-09-01T06:21:00.001-07:00

y my mom always scold me...
i dun like it....
always ask me do homework
i hate homework...
then force me go play piano...
i dun like it...
today they scold me
i felt like crying...
i ate 2 pieces of cream cake...
and damn tat sucks...

i had enough

2008-08-30T06:39:00.001-07:00

enough is enough...
not everytime i like ppl making fun of me...
i know i'm not pretty not beautiful i'm just a normal gurl
but even as a BFF u dont have to call me a fat pig ok...
u can joke but not whn i am in a emo mode...
y ppl dont understand
i am so tired n sick...
is ok if my bf dont choi me but i dont want my frens to pour salt to my wound...
i am so sad ok...
is just tat yeah they r my
bff they can joke around calling me names but sometimes just they over do it...
and i dont like it...
i just feel so sad and emo....
aomwonw pls hwlp mw...T.T

The song u played...

2008-08-30T04:13:00.001-07:00

30August2008 7:18PM (at joie's house) (its a hurtfull day)

whenever i hear the song "Forever love" it reminds me of u ...
it reminds me of everything we shared..
the happinesss the sadness and every single sparkle in the air...
i cant let u go....
is just so painfull...
is like stabbing a knife in my heart it really hurts...
no matter how i pull out the knive i still cant stop it from bleeding...
i really have no gutts to say i love you...
cause its almost 1 year n i cant decide whether i love you or not...
in this 1 yeah our distance...is further apart even whn i see u i will act like nothing is thr....
it really hurts.....
i dont know what to say what to do...
everytime i want to talk to u ...
i dont dare...cause i am affride tat i would speak the wrong word or thing...
but then everytime i hear tat song...i felt like crying...
the tears just fall like droplets of water flowing down my cheek...
it just hurts....
i cant forget you....T.T

Catch me when I fall pls…pls

2008-08-29T08:11:00.001-07:00

28August2008 11:50PM (RAinbow hope ..is the last hope i've got be4 i made my decision )

somehow i think i went nutttsss...
today morning i was like "its over i think i should say break up wiv him today "
but then all of a suddent we got a topic to talk is like whn i am really down really hopeless the angel's gave me a thin string of hope....
i was like 50%50% weather to break up wiv him or not...
me n Wk had a long talk...
she told me tat whn u love someone u would let go anything just to love him even your life...
she ask me if FXXX is in danger someone is taking a pistol and aim-ing no him will i blok it for him and i was like ...OMG....i dont know...
is just so confussing...
u know today it rained again but i saw a rainbow ...is a portion of a rainbow only ...
but is it a signal of hope for JXXXXX...i really dont know

Crazzy day @__@

2008-08-27T05:55:00.000-07:00

27 August2008 9:36PM (Stormy day)
today i was like WHOOOOAAAHHH....BITCH MAN...
cause i am like so crazzzy...zzzz
i went around like eating cloud 9 n watching them play cards game...
and me n joie was like woi HL dont put tat card out u bitch...
we went like OMG teacher is coming keep it...!!!!
thank god we never get caught...
lolx...
today i was like looking at XXXXhim in the eyes n suddently i feel nothing...n i'm like OMG...
i cant go on like this ...
is like so stupid n crazy is driving me nuttttssssyyy....
woah...i really felt like ----- him...
haix...but i cant do it...its just so hard to say it out
is like asking u to say u hate your BFF ..n its like R U CRAZY I'M NOT SAYING IT!!!
but i really cant forget FXXX is just so hard to forget himm...
today was a stormy day
everyone were like a sissy....goin like OMG covering their ears...god i'm like suddently not scare at all...
whn we go home i say FXXX and i was like hoping he would notice me because is rather dark n gloomy...tats wad i call it "'GLOOMY"...
he really did notice me n i went like YAYx...!!!^___^so happy...
because thr was a small flood on the floors so i went like steping on the water hoping it would plash on him but it didnt n he almost splash me bak but i ran fast enough to dodge it^__^
haha
my brother n i had a long talk abt how to get rich lol
we talked abt cell couture n i asked him to cell the rice to a better species so tat we can plant it n get really $__$ yeah baby^___^

fellings towads you

2008-08-26T19:18:00.000-07:00

27August2008 10:27AM (crushed day so wad...)

sometimes ppl tell me dude you've got to stop looking at him ...
and my BFF's tell me tat he had change last time he would have did the same thing like me staring out the window looking for his gf but now...he dont even care..
sometimes i just feel like ending this relationship but everytime i look or talk to him i would tell myself maybe i should change my mind...
T.T but dude he was walking pass our classroom and he just ignore me i am like WTF u BITCH...
chill......
haix...y am i always talking to myself *sighs*
u know its really hardcore...
i wanted to say y u didnt care me...u told me whn i fall u would cath me
but well Joie made a joke out of it...whn i fall he's just gonna laugh and then only catch me....
and he likes to go so near me tat i can feel his heartbeat and body temperature of course tat was be4 the 1week holiday ...
everyone were like gurl stop thinking abt him...
and i was like am i a bit of a playgurl cause i think abt other guys...how can i do tat but at least i never flirt tats gud already but i just felt like our relationship is going to a fullstop completely a empty one...
i'm so sorry ...but i just dont feel love...dont feel warm ...dont feel protected wiv u ...*sighs*

wad happen to me

2008-08-26T08:10:00.000-07:00

26 August2008 11:18pm (emo day and cold day)

u know i am like the whole day smelling tears...
i think something is gonna happen n i just dunno wad ...
OMG... ... i am like a fool....
haix...T.T i really tat ling ren tao yan mar...
today XXX say tat i sometimes talk de time very hurt ppl cause i only think my side but i really dunno...
cause whn XXX talk to me tat time also very hurtfull she said 'dont make me lar cannot see i talking one ar!!' and i'm like shut up my mouth didnt talk
i really very xin ku ar...i wan cry...
is like something is in my heart ..
gonna burst out....like bomb...
my hands r so cold n i am so cold...
whr is a bf whn u nid a warm hand...
XXX dun wan to hold my hands cause of some reasons and i am like is ok ...i dont mind...

yayx

2008-08-25T19:07:00.000-07:00

26August2008 10:20am (wet day for me cause my heart is crying)

folio....
i am so fucked up so stress out....
i really hope someone understands me my bf haven sms me for a week and plus yesterday makes it 8 days...
everytime i look at him i dont know wad to say so i just walk away...
i really dont want to be the one talking action i feel like 'dude i am a gurl i'm your gf can u do something to impress me?!'
haix...forget abt it he's hopeless...
i dont know y my mama no mood again T.T....
dun angry me mama...i really sorry...
yesterday was the first day i never touch dota games..and i was like writing a blog isn't tat bad after all...
maybe doin gurls stuff would be better than playing vulgar games...i am like 'dude u need to be a girl'
haix....i do everything to try to make my mama happy but then i seems to be the cost of him being sad...y am i such a bad lui lui T.T
i really dunno....i am so sad now...all i know is i am the cost of every shit on earth i am the one tat hates myself ...
T.T

i hate myself

2008-08-25T09:53:00.000-07:00

today just seems like 1 of those Emo-ing days 4 me...
things turn out not the way i plan...
mama dunno y angry me..T.T
sorry o mama...
haix...
i dunno lar everytime i see XXX face i will have this weird feeling...is like i hate him OMG!@#$%%^
is tat true i reli dunno...
i feel like saying u bitch!@##$@@#% but cant cause he is my kor...zzz
haix...time fyies days past i really hope that everything will not slug so sick so sad i really wish i had never met someone like u tat makes me sad wish tat i would have turn things bak...
OMG i am writing a poetry again shit face...lol@#$#$%#$%
zzz
i nothing better to do....
zzz
swt -.-''

so boring so sien...
haix is just tat things change ...at least my frens didnt change and tats ok...
the TT really made me so piss and wanted to cry for a sec
i cant belive she acctually scold me like 'dun do tat i am trying to talk ar crystal ' and me n joie were like WTF....T.T i relli felt like OMG i want to cry someone gimmie a tissue...i dunno y now my heart breaks easily...
i can reli cry easily...even now writing my blog i felt like crying....
i dont know y the smell of my tears just roll down my cheek...its like everything change in just a week...
well i've got to go now...i hope i can have somemore time to update this blog but i just dont know how to find time...
this blog is written on 25August2008 at 1:01 Am

runaway...

2008-05-01T05:15:00.000-07:00

so nice the runaways song^_^
haiz...
now my kai kor dun reply me
my ex dont reply me...
i am so torned up
its just like last year
me n my ex ex bf broke up rite be4 my piano exam..
i cry n my heart was like oh my gosh u leave me for nothing...
left me in the dark...
this year....my ex dumped me right be4 exam
wad am i a fuckin toy
or a rubbish happy u play with it not happy u throw it away....
i hate tat i love u .....
n now when i think back every time when i listen to the song foever love it reminds me of my ex ex bf...
my heart beats...i dont know hu i love....
i really dont know
but now i guess its too late...i am just not brave enaugh to say i love u to u guys...
all i can say is i am sorry.....
i am childish tats hu i am
i dont need anyone to change it...i know its a weakness but i cant help it ..its in the jeans...
my father side family all r childish its because with have a bit slow brains u guys take advantage to dump me...

haiz...

2008-04-27T08:47:00.000-07:00

today is a kind of crazy day
start off with a no reply from my kai kor...
its like a few days me n my kai kor din sms i sms him he dun reply n i dont know y
manybe he is just too busy with her other kai mui...
makes me jealous all the time...zzz
hope i can tell him eh u stupid i dont wan be your kai mui^_^
haha so pro...but i am not doing tat cause i know u dun dare n i dun wan lose a kai kor...
hard to find wuwu~~~
so kelian.......
no one care me liao....wuwu~~~~
so lonely n emo.....feels like shit....
like dunno how lar
haiz........

WTF

2008-04-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

haiz.....i dont know how to believe u ...
u told me to break up n now u say i love u to me...
i dunno how ar.....who i love....!!!!
stupid me!!!i hate u crystal.....
i dunno hu i love....T.T....
stupid me!!!!!stupid.......
mariah carey-bye bye song nice....^_^
so meaningfull

childish de me

2008-04-23T07:51:00.000-07:00

childish ,unwanted
left behind like the others...haiz...zzz
wuwuwuwu~~~~very cham ar.....
life without u reali very cham but i believe in myself no u olso ok de^_^
hahahahaha reali not funny ar....
yeah i am laughing but inside i am dying...
i wan to eat jelly beans n gummy.....
at least when u bit the gummys head off it wont fight back....
sometime music n chocolate n teddies r all u have n they can at least make u a bit happy...not depressed......
tats all 4 today my dear diary...so sick of love song...but yet i still love it....
exam commin...sei lorx.....need study wuwu

sad...

2008-04-22T07:58:00.000-07:00

haiz i dunno wat to say ...
believe u or not...but i really dun believe u r a playboy...
but now everything over ler say wad u also wont come back...
can only xiang lian ni
n just hope tat u r happy bah but i am not happy...
exam comming also ...i remember i ask u after exam we go sri garden de food feista but now ....all torn up le...
i dun blame u ...blame myself too childish n stupid...no gud enough 4 u ....
just hope u remember me.....
i love u ....

we broke up

2008-04-20T03:57:00.000-07:00

yesterday midnight 12 o clock we broke up...
i keep crying n crying until my pillow is wet...
i really hope it was just a dream
but in the middle of the night i wake up n cry i told myself calm down u know this would happen pls dont cry...pls dun cry........
but in the end i cried my heart was bleeding n i hope tat in the morning this would all be a sily joke or something...
i hardly slept...just thinking of u make me cry
i cry over n over again just to hope u come back to me...
u hear me ??i love u i never felt this way be4 well ok my ex left me n i didnt cry out only cried in the heart...but u ...i cried out.......
i love u ...i really love u very much...
my heart is torned up by u
it was built by u n ,u end up tearing it apart until it hurts so much

oh my gosh^_^

2008-04-18T07:17:00.000-07:00

i love u so much babe finally u top up
i was like so damn happy...............
i miss u so much goin to die le

today ne okok lu normal day but very fun
cause raining....haha
see ppl play rain

midnight cant sleep

2008-04-14T08:09:00.001-07:00

peace yo^_^
hahahahahaha....not funny is now almost midnight n i still can't sleep yet....
got problems with changing the blog layout......
aiya can anyone help me!!!grrr....ibet i just have to find out myslef...so sick....
headache plus a bit fever.....wanna sei jor ....

today is emo day 4 me

2008-04-14T05:50:00.000-07:00

today very sad oo...dunno why....
miss him so much..
hope tat his headache better ba...
so dan xin oo.....today first time play blogging...very shuang oo..!!
but still a bit sob sob dei....

this is all 4 today lu....cannot write more le....hope today will more happy bah...!!
muackzz love u ^_^..